Take Time to Watch

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Written By Nancy Hicks Live
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But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me. Micah 7:7


I took some time for myself last month. Thanks to the great people who work with me, I was able to pull back, heal, and refuel, while the ministry continued to grow to impact lives.

Here’s how I knew I wasn’t doing well:

  • I’d wake up every day and feel like, “Oh, I’m so tired. Here we go again.” (So NOT me!)

  • I had the urge to run. “I want to just run away,” I told Cam a few times.

  • I kept “hitting the wall” with my work. 

  • I’d cry. A lot. 

Despite the fact that I’d stayed connected to God through prayer, the scriptures, and community, the loss of speaking due to COVID-19 (I love being with people and I love speaking/teaching!), COVID-19’s intrinsic and ongoing disruption, and my David’s health all took more of a toll on me than I’d realized.

Oh, and how’s David, you may be wondering. Here’s an update: 

In mid-July, David finished his sixth round of chemotherapy for the third tumor they’d found. David is scheduled now for surgery on August 25 to remove the tumor on his liver. His summer’s been spent caring for his body and soul while living with us here in Pennsylvania and working remotely for a judge in New York. When not working, he reflects and is at peace. He’s just so powerfully peaceful.

Watching David walk this journey has been deeply moving for me. You know how, as you watch, you learn from those kids, lessons that last the rest of your life? It’s just so true! Just watch your kid some time—infant, toddler, or adult—just watch them without correcting and critiquing.

Maybe they’re your sister’s or friend’s kids but just watch. Really watch and notice. Pay attention to how they move. How they breathe. How they hiccup and stare. Watch how they come to you sleepy and needy, then silly and sassy!

Watch them grow in every way. Hair, hands, height, shoulders, feet. Heart, mind, personality, and perspective. Just watch all their being expand.

The tears and groans I had in me are for my once little boy, now man. I’m watching him walk his journey with God, and, as his mother, I have nothing to do but watch. Oh, sure I can pray and serve, but mostly I’m just watching.

Just watching and hoping and waiting for God.


In what area of your life are you doing the same?

I’m real because God is so real.
~Nancy

Nancy Hicks Live